The craziest thing has happened to me. I feel completely and emotionally healed, and it seems like it happened overnight! I know that it didn’t, of course. It took many months, many tears, many moments of anger. Wine. Friend support. Poor decisions. Music. Counseling. Letting go. Forgiveness. All of these things were part of the process. A process that I never thought would end. Yet, here I am, feeling completely and wonderfully healed. And happy. I feel like I hear music differently, even. If that makes sense. Which I’m sure it doesn’t, because most things I think don’t make a lot of sense.
My former mother in law always says, “You can’t help how you feel. Feelings just are.” She is a hundred percent right, and usually is. People should always trust the process, even if they feel like there is no end in sight when they are going through an emotionally painful experience. I allow myself to feel what I feel because it is necessary. I may or may not have thought I would become a bitter, reborn spinster with 37 cats and an RV for the rest of my life, but that feeling didn’t last either. People tell others not to be negative, and I certainly agree with that to an extent. But it is another thing entirely to be allowed to feel negative feelings. Like I said, this is necessary. It is necessary for healing. It is necessary for showing your children it is okay to feel. It is necessary because you are human.
Looking back on how far you have come is empowering, looking at the now is encouraging, and looking forward is oh-so-exciting.